Call me Crazy

I have been called crazy because I left a job that was killing my soul- literally caused autoimmune disorder and my body healed when I listened. They will call you crazy when you walk away from others who loved your silence and conformity. Your heart will begin to heal when know this boundary was essential for you to begin to love yourself without conditions. They will call you crazy when you dreamed out loud, when the the rooms were built for small talk. They will call you crazy when you stop playing small and go for what your soul knows before you do and you listen. I have heard the story my entire life from people who say they love me. "get a real job".... " you are Queen in Lala Land".... "you are foolish"... or simply " I don't know how to respond" when I am speaking my truth. My truth has always come from a place of love and compassion. But at the end of the day, it really doesn't matter what others think. It has been a shadow of mine to be a people pleaser. I was someone that has learned to be the peacemaker, avoidance of conflict because of all of the judgements and opinions that have been told to me time and time again and again. The storyline and narrative is all not true. I have learned when I am called crazy or weird. I smile. I say thank you and know that I am learning to not cast judgement on others who are only judging themselves. I am waking the fuck up and into who I am. ( Yes, this has been a new word that feels so empowering to me this year!!)

I have the courage to stand in my truth, I am not perfect by any means, but I do know that I am working on being the best version of myself for ME, for my family and for humanity. I apologize to those who I may have hurt in that older versions of myself. I am not that hurt person today. I have the courage and tenacity to surrender to the wisdom in the challenges that life has presented and have learned to transform the my suffering into knowledge and wisdom. They will call you crazy when you feel deeply and when you know things before they do. I am no longer going to lose myself to please everyone. I have had to lose everyone to find myself. If trauma can be passed own through generations then so can my healing. I love deeply. I have always been open minded and kind. I will always see the glass half full. I will always try to see the light in all beings even though it is smothered in pain, resistance or denial. I will always support you where you are. I see you, unconditionally. So call me crazy!